If only she knew....

It was all said and done
I can't believe what you did
How can I be the one
Is it all just in my head

Trying hard not to breathe
Maybe then I'll let you leave
Nothing more I could do
All I am is there with you

It was easy to see
He would cherish your love, your touch, your kiss
And all that's in between

I gave you my soul
To have and to hold
So lost, confused

If only she knew
If only she knew......

Stop This Pain

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on, so haunting every time
And as I stared
I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

The things i knew about you....

The
Things
I
Knew
About
You:


1)Your favourite number: 23



2)Your favourite fruit: Apple



3)You like Mickey Mouse



4)Your dream country: France



5)Your favourite drinks: soursop/apple



6)You love Michael Scolfield[Prison Break]



7)Your favourite music: Fast music that can be dance to. E.g. raggae



8)Your favourite color: PINK



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Truth is, I'm badly hurt

For the past few weeks, i've been trying to smile truthfully, but all the smiles werent permanent. I try not to think bout u, but you just came into my mind n nvr left. But u came into my life, and u left......

I wish u were here with me, happy like we use to be...
But sometimes, i just wish i could wash u away....
Its hard to let go...
After all, i'm human, i too got feelings....

Everywhere i go,
Everything i do,
Everyone i see,
Seems to be reminding me of u.....
Whenever i close my eyes,
Ur smile still in my mind....
Ur warm hugs still felt, warms my heart...
Ur kiss still being felt....
Ur smell still lurks....
I dun want to be a fool, crying over you,
I just wanna forget you but what can i do....
Wish you would come back to me, come back to me....
Don't you know my love is true
But this feeling, it hurts so bad, so much....
Why is it hard for me to forget you, while its easy for you to hate me....

Who u are, who are u, i dun care....
I wanna be with you, since u're my happiness
But u left n it hurts to say its too bad
My happiness is gone, but ur happiness stays within me
If its hard for u to make sacrifices for us and for ur good,
its even harder for me to want to be with someone who's by my side but her heart and mind is with 'him'.


I want to forget u.....oh plz do.....
I dun want hurt no more
I dun want get hurt whenever i hear u, see u....

Memories, plz fly away.....nvr return........nvr be my shadows....

Please.......................................

Life has been.....

Well, my life, its the same everyday

Tried to smile alot in school but when go home,
alone again....

Well, that life, its my path.....

anyway, i counted the nights when i dreamt bout her

Total: 3 weeks and 4 nights
Some different dreams, some same dreams
haih...whats this i'm feeling everyday?
Its painful



Sometimes i wander why cant i just be happy....
True happiness lies not on a smile, but on the heart....
But people say the smiles on ones face can make us happy
But sry people, it didnt work for me

All i've been doing is smile but feel down inside....



Why?......

Heal Me, I'm heartsick

Heal me, i'm heartsick
I'm hungry and i'm broken
I'm haunted, and weeping
Theblood of heaven flowing like a river tonite,
tears i can't fight on my own

I'm a haunted, heaving, i'm hung
and barely breathing
The drowning ocean, snuff the sun in motion.
Theres a pill on my tongue,
a shot from a gun ,
the bottles bottom
I'm lonely as a star

So heal me, i'm heart sick
Hungry, but i can survive on you
Heal my heartsick hungry cries
I'm heartsick

Father, free me.
mama , woman, feed me.
Child of fury, lost his way but don't worry.
I won't stop til the dawn,
Though i'm in too long on the run
i grow strongad restless as a dog

Heal me
I'm heart sick
I'm hungry and i'm broken
I'm haunted, and weeping
The blood of heaven flowing like a river tonite
Tears i can't fight on my own