Still my number one
Eventhough you're gone
Love still burning strong
Feel I can't move on
Seems I lost my way
Things just aint the same
How I wish I stayed
Close to you
I know the rainy days aint over
When i think of you
I know I'm not out of the storm yet
Coz i'm feeling blue
When you see in my reflection
Looking back at you
I'm just trying to say....
I'm still missing you
Like the storm misses the rain
Like the warm summers day
I'll be missing you always
I'm still breathing you
Like you're here in my arms
Like you're not even gone
Will I feel like this always
Cause I'm still missing you
Thought I wanted out
Too yound to be tied down
Things seem clearer now
Should have stayed somehow
Hope it's not too late
Could I just try explain
Wish I could heal the pain
Caused to you
I'm still missing you
Like the storm misses the rain
Like a wasrm summers day
I'll be missing you always
I'm still breathing you
Like you're here in my arms
Like you're not even gone
Will I feel like this always
Cause I'm still missing you
I'm still missing you....
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
Dreams and tears
Its been 9 nights i've been dreaming about you.
Whats happening to me?
Whats the exact meaning of this dreams?
Whenever i dream, you are there, everywhere.
Whenever i woke up, i think bout it, and its just weird to be dreaming about you 9 nights straight without any pause.
Whats with me?
Or
Whats with those dreams?
Dream again yesterday, and yeah, same dream. I wash my feet but still i dreamt.
I woke up, and just sat there wandering why these dreams keep playing itself. But when i go to bed yesterday, i never put you in my mind. So whats with these dreams.
I took a bath, and as per normal, wear some nice shirt n short. Bu at the same time, i kept thinking bout those dreams. I ignored, but it kept running inside my head.
I checked my friendster n go to my friends profile using another tab. But i realise that i chked the wrong profile, i thought it was somebody else profile but i clicked on ur profile. When the song on my friendster played, i saw ur pics, i wanted to close the tab but my heart just stop me. I look through ur pics. You got some nice pics. But with the song playing n seeing ur pics, the next thing happen is.....well, i dun wanna tell.....
So whats exactly with me?
I'm confuse,
Is it bcoz of those dreams?
Or
Is it bcoz i confuse my feelings, with the truth......
Whats happening to me?
Whats the exact meaning of this dreams?
Whenever i dream, you are there, everywhere.
Whenever i woke up, i think bout it, and its just weird to be dreaming about you 9 nights straight without any pause.
Whats with me?
Or
Whats with those dreams?
Dream again yesterday, and yeah, same dream. I wash my feet but still i dreamt.
I woke up, and just sat there wandering why these dreams keep playing itself. But when i go to bed yesterday, i never put you in my mind. So whats with these dreams.
I took a bath, and as per normal, wear some nice shirt n short. Bu at the same time, i kept thinking bout those dreams. I ignored, but it kept running inside my head.
I checked my friendster n go to my friends profile using another tab. But i realise that i chked the wrong profile, i thought it was somebody else profile but i clicked on ur profile. When the song on my friendster played, i saw ur pics, i wanted to close the tab but my heart just stop me. I look through ur pics. You got some nice pics. But with the song playing n seeing ur pics, the next thing happen is.....well, i dun wanna tell.....
So whats exactly with me?
I'm confuse,
Is it bcoz of those dreams?
Or
Is it bcoz i confuse my feelings, with the truth......
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Dreams...
It's already 4 nights i've been having dreams about you.
Yeah, its just dream, but it's weird when u keep having the same dreams...
Whats is this all about?
I really dunno what i'm feeling actually about those dreams.
Is it because its just a dream?
Is it a dream which has its meaning?
Is it because my feelings cause these dreams?
Or is it simply because.........i dont dare say this...but......is this because.....i miss you?
Dreams.....
Haha, it can be wonderful but its definitely wierd when you dream about something a number of times without a skip or miss.....
Well, one things for sure, these dreams makes me remember todays date n todays date remind me of that day when we met.....
One question keep running through my mind: What's with those dreams?
Hopefully, its only a dream.....
.......maybe not.......
sHaZnI
Yeah, its just dream, but it's weird when u keep having the same dreams...
Whats is this all about?
I really dunno what i'm feeling actually about those dreams.
Is it because its just a dream?
Is it a dream which has its meaning?
Is it because my feelings cause these dreams?
Or is it simply because.........i dont dare say this...but......is this because.....i miss you?
Dreams.....
Haha, it can be wonderful but its definitely wierd when you dream about something a number of times without a skip or miss.....
Well, one things for sure, these dreams makes me remember todays date n todays date remind me of that day when we met.....
One question keep running through my mind: What's with those dreams?
Hopefully, its only a dream.....
.......maybe not.......
sHaZnI
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Holding On
My world is closing in I'm so alone,
The door is locked and nobody's home,
Desire is the key that i must own,
Emotions got me losing control,
I'm losing control.
But I know,
It's the way that i must live,
Eventhough, it's so unclear, so unfair,
God I know,
There's a path for everyone,
I must believe and keep holding on...
I'm wishing i was somebody else,
This world left me all by myself,
Now why do they keep playin with my mind,
Trying to break me down, tryin to make me blind,
But i see.
Coz I know,
It's the way that i must live,
Eventhough, it's so unclear, so unfair,
God I know,
There's a path for everyone,
I must believe and keep holding on...
God I know,
There's a path for everyone,
I must believe and keep holding on.
Never let my fears conquer me,
Coz i know in my heart what i can be....
I'm holding on....
The door is locked and nobody's home,
Desire is the key that i must own,
Emotions got me losing control,
I'm losing control.
But I know,
It's the way that i must live,
Eventhough, it's so unclear, so unfair,
God I know,
There's a path for everyone,
I must believe and keep holding on...
I'm wishing i was somebody else,
This world left me all by myself,
Now why do they keep playin with my mind,
Trying to break me down, tryin to make me blind,
But i see.
Coz I know,
It's the way that i must live,
Eventhough, it's so unclear, so unfair,
God I know,
There's a path for everyone,
I must believe and keep holding on...
God I know,
There's a path for everyone,
I must believe and keep holding on.
Never let my fears conquer me,
Coz i know in my heart what i can be....
I'm holding on....
Monday, April 16, 2007
240307-160407
Started:240307
Ended:160407
When i first met you, your eyes told me that ur heart said that u will be with me always.
When i first met you, your eyes told me that ur heart said that u loved me.
When i first met you, your eyes told me that ur heart said i am sure that u'll be loving me forever.
U told me u love so much.
U told me u wouldnt want to leave me.
U told me u'll be here for me.
U told me u miss me.
I accepted u for who u are, believng that u'll be happy with me..
Knowing that u'll be my happiness and joy...
U told me all of those things, and said its true, but it turns out to be lies....
Read again, we were happy at the beginning, but after ur sudden change, u stop sayin those words, those touching romantic words that u said its true....
I tried to make u happy, tried to cheer u up, tried to make u smile, although this heart is heavy, i never bring it out to make ur smiles go away.....
Even after the sudden change, i still go on loving u....
I cannot let this go on....
We will never be happy if u dun even wanna try...
Thats why i have to know why...
Thats why i kept asking u why...
I know its frustrating for someone with problems to think bout the answer..I'm sry
But i have problems too....
And remember, there's no one around me to help me....
Read again, we were happy at first, but soon, after u ignore me, all change....
So the words isnt true at all
So the true words are true lies after all....
Rite now, i'm so hurtz....
The pain, unbareably painful...
I hope u'll realise how much i love u, how much i care bout u.....
I'll even put my life on the line just to keep u safe, just to see u smile....
I dun know whtr u will return but trust this, i'll be waiting n be here for u, for better or worse or most worse or the very most worse, i'll be here for u...
My last words:
I love u fizah.....very much....
sHaZnI )'X
Ended:160407
When i first met you, your eyes told me that ur heart said that u will be with me always.
When i first met you, your eyes told me that ur heart said that u loved me.
When i first met you, your eyes told me that ur heart said i am sure that u'll be loving me forever.
U told me u love so much.
U told me u wouldnt want to leave me.
U told me u'll be here for me.
U told me u miss me.
I accepted u for who u are, believng that u'll be happy with me..
Knowing that u'll be my happiness and joy...
U told me all of those things, and said its true, but it turns out to be lies....
Read again, we were happy at the beginning, but after ur sudden change, u stop sayin those words, those touching romantic words that u said its true....
I tried to make u happy, tried to cheer u up, tried to make u smile, although this heart is heavy, i never bring it out to make ur smiles go away.....
Even after the sudden change, i still go on loving u....
I cannot let this go on....
We will never be happy if u dun even wanna try...
Thats why i have to know why...
Thats why i kept asking u why...
I know its frustrating for someone with problems to think bout the answer..I'm sry
But i have problems too....
And remember, there's no one around me to help me....
Read again, we were happy at first, but soon, after u ignore me, all change....
So the words isnt true at all
So the true words are true lies after all....
Rite now, i'm so hurtz....
The pain, unbareably painful...
I hope u'll realise how much i love u, how much i care bout u.....
I'll even put my life on the line just to keep u safe, just to see u smile....
I dun know whtr u will return but trust this, i'll be waiting n be here for u, for better or worse or most worse or the very most worse, i'll be here for u...
My last words:
I love u fizah.....very much....
sHaZnI )'X
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Happy
Yup, like the tittle say, happy..
Let me tell u about my story, before i became so happy...
2005: I met this someone 2 years back. She seems nice, sweet and cute. She treat me like a rose. But wat i didnt realise is, she's turning me into a black rose. U'll see why later, further in this story. Well, we fall for each other n we got together. Yeah, there was a problem for her before she met me, but that problem stopped. So i thought we sould be happy. But then, i had to leave her, coz lets just say i had to protect her. Thats 2 years back.
2006: We had contact. And well, yeah, i've told her wat happen. And she undestands n we were together again. But, our relationship only last for 3 months. At first, the sights that i saw, she sitting very close to her guy frens, shoulder to shoulder...they held her shoulder n she dun mind at all...it was a very heart breaking sights. But i kept quiet. Then, i couldnt take it anymore. I talked to her about this n she nod her head saying she understands. But then, a few days later, everybody, her frens, my frens, everyone..started saying i was overprotective. To me, it was like "what the hell??". I just accept it n patience in my mind. But then, she approached me n started to indirectly say things to me that she dun like it when i talk to my girls frens. What the hell? cant even talk to them. Fine, and yeah, i wasnt close with them. I tried to spend time with her, sacrificing my times when i suppose to spend with my frens. I wasnt close to my frens anymore. But she just ignored me n spend time with her frens. So i got fed up n i smsed her saying wat i dun like, n she got fed up n thats it. She left me.
2007: We contacted again. And this time, we really confessed to each other. The most stupid thing i ever done is trusting her "i love u". She began ignoring me. She says she needs space to think bout her future studies. yeah, well, i gave her that space but think about it. If she needs space, she ignores me n go spend time with her frens???? Come on! Soon, an angel appeared. She seems very nice, very cute, and very sweet. This angel was there for me whenever i'm down. She was there even if i never asked to be accompanied. I know that angel likes me coz i can see. Soon, i fall like that angel. But at the same time, i love the girl before. It was lucky for me coz that loving flame for the girl before is getting lower and lower. And guess wat, rite now, i'm happy with that angel. Very much happier. 240307 ;)
A simple advice: The one who needs you coz they love you is the right choice. Coz good or bad, they will be there for you....
sHaZnI=)
Let me tell u about my story, before i became so happy...
2005: I met this someone 2 years back. She seems nice, sweet and cute. She treat me like a rose. But wat i didnt realise is, she's turning me into a black rose. U'll see why later, further in this story. Well, we fall for each other n we got together. Yeah, there was a problem for her before she met me, but that problem stopped. So i thought we sould be happy. But then, i had to leave her, coz lets just say i had to protect her. Thats 2 years back.
2006: We had contact. And well, yeah, i've told her wat happen. And she undestands n we were together again. But, our relationship only last for 3 months. At first, the sights that i saw, she sitting very close to her guy frens, shoulder to shoulder...they held her shoulder n she dun mind at all...it was a very heart breaking sights. But i kept quiet. Then, i couldnt take it anymore. I talked to her about this n she nod her head saying she understands. But then, a few days later, everybody, her frens, my frens, everyone..started saying i was overprotective. To me, it was like "what the hell??". I just accept it n patience in my mind. But then, she approached me n started to indirectly say things to me that she dun like it when i talk to my girls frens. What the hell? cant even talk to them. Fine, and yeah, i wasnt close with them. I tried to spend time with her, sacrificing my times when i suppose to spend with my frens. I wasnt close to my frens anymore. But she just ignored me n spend time with her frens. So i got fed up n i smsed her saying wat i dun like, n she got fed up n thats it. She left me.
2007: We contacted again. And this time, we really confessed to each other. The most stupid thing i ever done is trusting her "i love u". She began ignoring me. She says she needs space to think bout her future studies. yeah, well, i gave her that space but think about it. If she needs space, she ignores me n go spend time with her frens???? Come on! Soon, an angel appeared. She seems very nice, very cute, and very sweet. This angel was there for me whenever i'm down. She was there even if i never asked to be accompanied. I know that angel likes me coz i can see. Soon, i fall like that angel. But at the same time, i love the girl before. It was lucky for me coz that loving flame for the girl before is getting lower and lower. And guess wat, rite now, i'm happy with that angel. Very much happier. 240307 ;)
A simple advice: The one who needs you coz they love you is the right choice. Coz good or bad, they will be there for you....
sHaZnI=)
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